My friends are...

I was looking through my old journals and blog posts today and I saw where I used to be.  


And I look at where I am now. An aspiring police officer wanting to use my ministry concentration to do amazing things within this lifetime.  


I look at the people that used to know me and I realized that today they only see the old me, the girl who was insecure and afraid to saw what I needed or wanted to say.  I used to let them walk all over me and control my life; dictating what I did day-to-day. I was a girl with a faith that was shaky at best who wanted to help people even though I didn't know how to help myself.


So I went to counselling and changed my major, and in doing so, I learned quite a bit about myself.  I have discovered that I do love doing things for people, if I say I will do something for you, please know that I mean it.  I learned to notice when something is my fault and when someone is trying to place blame on me. I learned who was going to be there for me- for real, and who will only be there when they want something out of me. And most importantly, I learned who my God is and who I am in his sight.


In the past three years I have made some amazing friends.  They were there for the transformation and they are willing to see who I am now, not who I was and encourage me throughout that transformation.  They know what I am passionate about, what I can't stand and I know that if I don't want someone in my wedding party, they will do damage control if the person throws a hissy fit (Inside joke, but I could see it happening).  


When I can't speak, these friends are my words. They can look at my face and see what I am thinking or feeling. And I don't always have to speak around them because they know that sometimes I just want to be quiet without being asked what's wrong.  They understand my text messages and don't look for hidden meanings behind my words, because there are none.  


So to these friends, and I think they know who they are, I want to say thank you.  For being willing to call me one my mistakes but love me anyway.  Thanks for being there when I just need a person around, even if I don't want to talk, and for the inside jokes and awkward moments. And thank you for the constant hugs, there is nothing like a hug from your best friends.  


And to my other readers, I pray that you find friends as sweet and as crazy as mine are. Who after only a year, know you better than someone who has known you your whole life.


I just want to end with this quote, which I think is appropriate for the amount of love that friendships bring:


"A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart, and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words." -Unknown