For most of my life I have really wanted only one thing. And very few of my friends understood.
I wanted my family and my friends to know Christ the way I do.
I used to pray everyday for this miracle to happen and with every passing day, it would get harder for me to believe. I remember the first time I realized that I was different from my family. I wanted to go to church and get involved but I was met with so much opposition.
After a while, I just stopped believing in miracles and that maybe, just maybe, one day my parents would share my faith. So I admit it, I gave up on God. When I would hear of all the amazing things He has done in people's lives and for others, I would listen to the stories and think "why couldn't He have answered my prayers?"
Then the other day, I heard something that changed my whole belief about God (not) answering. my prayers. I kept going to all of these worship functions and the speakers would talk about how there was "going to be a break through in families and people will turn to God." And I kept hearing Nehemiah 1:9 where (in a nutshell) God tells Nehemiah that if he is faithful, He will bring Nehemiah's people back. And a speaker at TFH applied that to families. And then at CCC last Sunday, PB did his sermon on the same thing. So maybe, just maybe, God is trying to tell me to trust in Him and His timing to save them or to not. But I still need to work on that whole trusting thing.
